10 Jul 2016

LOLing on the Web

Well. So much for the "more frequent posting" deal. You know what, I'm just gonna forget about caring about post frequency for good. Don't have much motivation nowadays for this level of maintenance. But still keeping an eye on this blog.

Anywho, I thought I'd remark a little on the Internet's sense of humour. Because why not? I always found it somewhat fascinating how the areas of focus and enjoyment defer from (and converge with), say, a comedian's brand of humour.

For one, the Internet likes to deal with compactness. Short and sweet usually trumps buildup sequence of wit and humour to a climax, which is kinda the opposite of a comedian's routine. Quick four-panel web comics, Advice Animals (which ironically nowadays hardly involves advice), hilarious Vines and GIFs... not surprising given that there's so much dang content spilling out online, you can only have so much time to grab somebody's attention before their eyes glaze over and they scroll through the rest of their feed. Which also unfortunately encourages the practice of "click-bait" titles. Meanwhile audiences can appreciate the setup and pacing of a comedian's narration or commentary with greater tolerance for length. Not that they are willing to wait through a long draggy tale, but they can listen through for a few minutes rather than watch for a few seconds online.

11 Jun 2016

Past Entry 13

16th June 2011

Whaddaya know? 2 consecutive Past Entries within hours of each other. That's new. Yet they'll be scheduled so far away. Years apart in fact. Also new. And I have no idea if this blog would even be active by the time this comes out, although I do hope so. I just switched the day digits and year digits around so 16/6/11 becomes 11/6/16, and set that as the destined date. As for the time, I'll figure out later.

I guess this may be closer to a time capsule than all my other Past Entries so far. Usually I'd schedule them to be published at most a year later. This time I thought of taking it further. Perhaps then this post would have even more impact to me in the future. Perhaps my future would be better than what I have now, and I'll look back thinking how much simpler things were compared to what I'll be experiencing, or would have experienced in the time between these two dates. Or maybe I'll actually be worse off in the future, and would feel remorse and regret upon re-reading this post, telling myself that I should have spent my time more wisely or enjoyed life better. Who knows?

18 May 2016

Eight Years

Alright, now here's the "proper anniversary post" that this blog may or may not be warranted.

Let's see. How anniversary events are usually handled is that we look at the past, see how we're handling things today, and where the future may lead us. So let's try that template.

The past first comprised of cringey early teen posts. Almost a necessary requirement for teens nowadays. I think I tried too hard to emulate "teen speak", by attempting to use as much lower case lettering as possible. Tried hard to post as much as possible too, in a bid to generate enough content and (unrealistically) attract a horde of readers to the blog that early.

17 May 2016

Yet Another Return

How about that. Tomorrow would be the exact 8th anniversary of the blog - well technically the anniversary of the first post I guess - and I have done barely anything on it in months. With these huge sporadic breaks between the last few posts, I wondered whether it's still worth it keeping my eye on this blog. I haven't fretted over the infrequency of the posts at all, unlike in the early years of the blog when I'd try to push for a weekly entry. I don't have the pressure of feeding content to eager readers.

But now I might just have more inspiration. More ideas to tinkle with, to transmute into personal creations that reveal facets of my mind, facets that may be initially obscure to even me. And I plan to use this blog as one of my active expressive channels.

5 Feb 2016


February: the month of the Lunar New Year and Valentine's Day. Talks of romance and love between a couple. The call for singles to find a lifelong partner or "die all alone". And for married couples to have children. I can't really say I care too much about that.

Really. I only entertained the idea of having my own family exactly once. And even then I was under heavy influence of the euphoria and emotion in that situation. All I'll say is that there was a particular workshop I went for, that at one point asked people to imagine themselves twenty or even thirty years down the road "watching your children do you and your spouse proud". Accompanied with sentimental music and darkened lights. Won't lie, I almost teared up in that moment.

I still remember what I imagined in my head, and ever since the workshop ended I found that vision to be totally ridiculous. Even more improbable in hindsight now, when romance is of so little concern to me. I don't feel pressured to find somebody else to be with for the rest of my life, let alone have progeny with.

7 Dec 2015


Good golly, it's been months. Not that I didn't have anything to talk about, but that I didn't have the time or the mood to do so for so long.

I thought I had a bazillion topics to cover, but I think it mostly boiled down to one thing in mind: who am I supposed to be?

I probably would've answered "a professional musician" a decade ago, naturally utilizing my skill in the piano & violin then. Another five years later, I probably wouldn't give such a definite response. Perhaps looking at different kinds of music industries/ And now, I'm not too sure still. My interests have spread around among music, maths, programming, gaming, and a few miscellaneous areas. And the list may be growing still.

23 Aug 2015


I've already accepted that I'm mentally wired in quite a different way from the typical people I come across. I tend to see different perspectives. I don't like taking conventions for granted when they contradict my logic. It's almost frustrating trying to see what wavelengths others are on so I'm not totally out of sync.

I guess more people are willing to accept the idea of differences in personality and mentality than before. The idea of introversion and extroversion is a common hot topic on social networks, appropriately enough. Yet paradoxically it's gotten mainstream enough to the point that youths are very quick to label themselves in either of the camps, or even the third "ambiversion" camp. Not everybody's clearly introverted or extroverted or perfectly in between. Similarly, the autism spectrum disorders have the word "spectrum" for a reason: there's no clear distinction or generalisation. Not all autistic people have drastic symptoms, and some even exhibit pretty close to neurotypical behaviour with very slight differences.

8 Aug 2015

Ass Gee Fifth Tee

Fifty years. Not bad of a streak so far. Not nearly as impressive as most other countries who've endured decades, even centuries, but it's a heck of an achievement given the circumstances.

Still, it's pretty annoying seeing the red dot with its four letter plastered just about everywhere. Understandable, but probably overdone to near death. Fishcake? SG50. Sushi? SG50. Milk powder? SG50. Lasagne? You get the idea. Any company could slap it on their products and claim it's for the commemoration of the 50th year of independence. Geez, remembering that the 2015 New Year Countdown kept using SG50 as a substitute term for "New Year" still irks me.

There is merit in all this in-your-face reminder of Singapore celebrating its 50th "birthday" (I don't even know why they call it a birthday) though. It's national education on overdrive. Okay, that in itself already elicits cringe reactions from some people. But many of the SG50 events do a neat job of reinforcing nostalgia and recounting of past milestones, something beneficial to the younger generations. A connection to the past that's getting ever more distant with time.

31 Jul 2015


And so it comes. The days of formal university study draw ever closer, and I'm in the midst of properly committing my choices of study.

Won't lie, it's freaking daunting. System is more complex than I was prepared for, but what's more important is the agency thrust upon me this time. Maybe I had some choice in picking general subjects for school so far, but this is really tailoring my schedule to fine detail. I'm a little paranoid of missteps, especially when the grading system isn't forgiving. Probably overthinking this now though. Besides, it does allow for personal freedom and variety in curriculum... to some extent.

28 Jul 2015

Past Entry 31

28th July 2013

Well. It's been some time. And to be frank I hesitated for a really long time before deciding it's time to do another one of these.

Why hesitate? I try to make these Past Entries when I think I'm at a certain important point in my life, that I think is worth bringing up again in the future. But what if I feel like there's almost nothing important in your life at the moment? What if I'm inching through a dark period of my life at a frustratingly lethargic pace? Do I still want to bring up such a horrible part of my memories back up again?

At first, I thought that there wasn't a need to force myself to do something I don't feel comfortable with, just for the sake of making sure the Past Entries aren't too far apart. Then I thought for a while longer. Actually, the fact that I'm in a situation that I absolutely hate being in is precisely why I have to do this.